Put me also in a box, label me. Lead me to the grass. There must be safety in herds. I once saw wildebeest line up for miles to cross the Mara. A group devices the geometry of survival.
All Groups. Bastards. Lovers. Those with the universe strapped to their thighs. Breath and voice and visage fading into one. Jumping into the river. One by one. Together.
But you leave me unnamed. Leave me alone in the rain. My skin drinking sky after sky till it is neither me nor cloud nor rain.
This is what you mean. The not fitting. The not belonging. The not standing in line. The not jumping together. But the outside is cold. I ask you again. AGAIN.
You unwrinkle me on a table and try to understand the words but the ink is smudged into a language you cannot read. This is what you mean. The calligraphy of incomprehension. Meterless. Wordless. Endless.
A grave is a box. Death, a label. We must ultimately be nothing and everything and be labelled when we are not left to call. The herd of the dead in rows for the final migration.
This is what you mean. The inevitability of sameness. The primal stereotype. Beyond the pretence of resistance. The line. The blue river. The danger. The other side.
A sudden urge to write prose-poetry. Do share links to prose-poetry you have written. Would love to read your work.
Most times I felt like a hummingbird, furiously
flapping my wings, fluttering back and forth,
Part 31 of the series “A story in many unequal parts, some missing”… Read the whole poem here.
go look if you must,
where they are, those years that passed,
hollowed-out days and kamikaze…
A poem written in March 2016, that rightfully fits into ‘A story in many different parts, some missing’ – it is now my Part 20.1 – Read the whole poem here.
The myth of the churning of the ocean — good and
evil battling for the nectar of immortality. Metaphor,
handbook, warning. On the…
And quite unbelievably, we’re already at Part 30 of the series “A story in many unequal parts, some missing”. Read the whole poem here.
it wasn’t much of a home:
maybe it was just a window,
without a room, without a…
Read the rest of the poem here. A throwback that fits right into ‘A story in many unequal parts, some missing’. Part 12.1 !!
I flip into the dark
eyes buried in my pillow:
when we dream
which way is up
water and burn and bones
how long it takes to fall
how long it will take to rise
where I was
was the mountain top
and the bottom is level ground
where I belong, you belong
in music as in dissonance:
some birds, they say,
can fly upside down
still in my bed
the sun still in the sky
the abyss is a room with no windows
breaking is building
building is breaking
only one me
descended into the dark
what if the rest of me
is still suspended from
that light beam
there are others down there
there are nine shades of night
my eyes adjust
to the dark
again they say this is the abyss
again and again I disagree
it cannot swallow me
I contain this abyss
the rabbit hole has rules:
some things will make me grow
some things will make me shrink
do I have to go back
the same way I came
what you call climbing
I call ‘not falling’
will you understand
how staying still
is also a victory
the blood in my veins
isn’t green-blue —
nothing is what it seems
even in the light
even right under my skin
what can I leave behind
in the abyss:
what is mine
what will be mine when I return
who will I be if I return
the morning is a paper cut
night wraps itself around my finger,
blood turns black, the night turns red
colour of beginnings
colour of endings
(Salute to the eternal inspiration:‘Thirteen Ways of Looking at a Blackbird’ by Wallace Stevens)
Maybe it is safer to believe in random correlations.
The moon does not contrive to hide behind a cloud.
And here’s Part 29 of the series “A story in many unequal parts, some missing”. Read the poem here.
I watch three stalks of white tuberose in a vase
four feet away. Their heady scent, blocking
thought, covering my eyes, floating little boats
down my restless bloodstream. I cannot move,
much less write, outside day turns to night,
perhaps with a clash of cymbals or to the breath
of an old sitar, the beyond teases music into
my silence. Somewhere else, there must be an
entire field of white flowers puckering, just as
the farmer lays his earth-roughened hands on
her pulsing belly, a million buds opening, the gods
hanging upside down from the clouds reaching
for the fragrance. This is what we were made
of, soft skin and paradise and the bouquet
of unbearable desire. This is what we can make
of soil and water and endless sky. This is what
bubbles in the orange shaft of light that falls
upon my empty couch. I watch, I inhale, I
shiver, I hide, inside a perfumed shadow.
Sharing the reading of Part 20 of “A story in many unequal parts, some missing”. (To read the poem, click here.)
This is the last of the readings, for a while. So check it out and if you’ve been listening, drop me a line! Reading the poems aloud connected me to them in a totally different way, I hope you too enjoy a different side, a different shade of the poem as you listen to it!
Always watching myself — from behind doors,
from across the room, in a dream — my own
stalker. Cursing when I falter, cursing…
Hard to believe I’ve been writing this series since July 22, we’re into month #7 and a brand new year. And freshly posted today is Part 28. Read the poem here.
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